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Humans! Can’t live with them, can’t…

by R F on November 26th, 2006

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Sometimes I seriously think I’m not human. I just cannot handle human beings - we don’t talk the same language. You think you say one thing, and the other person hears something else. Emotions come and go and confuse everything.

Oh, it’s fine as long as it is a about something specific, talking work at work works, at least sometimes.

I learned to write simple programs on a computer before I could write by hand. When I think about something (besides really trivial stuff), I think in some kind of logical images - I cannot even begin to describe it, nor visualize it or grasp it in any other way. I’m brilliant at this. Really! I understand stuff, ’see’ connections that other people cannot see, both in the logical computer world and in the real world - especially within athletics. I see what a certain individual can perform, I can predict a lot of what happens to my athletes. I have several time made correct predictions covering years into the future - mental and physical development. Same thing with relations, I see potential, I see what can be if you only change things a little bit…

The problem is when I want to communicate this. Writing computer programs is easy, you just tweak the inputs until the desired output is reached. You reach for the manual and reference when you need to remember exactly how a specific function in php/perl/asp/whatever does - and you know that that function does exactly that - no more, no less, no damages to the surroundings and the computer won’t get hurt when you do a stupid function call.

Where the f**k is the manual for humans? How do you reboot someone when you have entered to much stuff into them, and have them stuck in an infinite loop with a severe memory leak (happens mostly with athletes during competitions)? How do you tweak the input, after you inputted it? I really need that save function and daily backups! Why can’t they at least use standardized inputs, so there’s a chance in eternity to actually gain control of this?

It would be a good thing to be able to care about someone without trying to reprogram them. People don’t seem to respond well to reprogramming using extreme honesty and frankness - they get hurt… I hate hurting people. Even though I’ll never truly understand them I actually love several of them.